Journal of Submission

Aug 1st, 2002  Last week, Mistress Tara had instructed me to build a closet in time for the grand opening party.  Tonight i planned out the closet project and did some painting.

Aug 5th, 2002  i took a vacation day from work to get started on the closet project.  Its monster hot so i have to keep myself hydrated and fed.   Dog tired but the end of the day.  Worked from 3pm until 1am.  Mistress Tara seems to think that the closet project is going well.  Its really just getting started. 

 No play at the end of the night.  

i really like doing this work, but i also really like dressing up as a lady.  my cross dressing really calms me down.  i get really tense when i can't get dressed for a long time.

Overall it was a good way to spend a vacation day.

Aug 6th, 2002 Yet another coffee and Advil day.  i was really sore when i got up.  i immediately had to do lots of stretching to get going.

After some appointments in the city i'm going to the dungeon to continue the closet project.

More work on the closet, its going really well. 

Mistress Tara told me that playtime would be based on Her whim.  Playtime never came.

After Mistress Tara took this picture, She mentioned 'If you have an accident, you are to let know immediately so i can photograph it before the blood is cleaned up' 

Aug 7th, 2002 One more coffee and Advil day.  Morning stretches didn't really work today.  Last night i was really frustrated, i feel pretty good today.  The work does have its own rewards.

Mistress Tara has taught me to listen to and follow my inner compass.  Its working.  i get less caught up in the details of normal life and more focused on what needs to be done, for Mistress Tara or otherwise.  The closet is what needs to be done, playtime can wait. 

Aug 9th, 2002  while planning my work for the weekend, i sent Mistress Tara the following email:

Dear Mistress Tara,

Yesterday i was very worried about completing the closet in time for the party. i looked at the calendar and feel that the project is doable with the possible exception of making the doors. i have yet to find the doors commercially.

my work schedule has heated up and may only be able to work on this on Saturdays.

At this point i will be putting my energy into doing the project instead of worrying about the project.

You expect my best work and frequently get it. i will do my best for You on this project and leave it to You to decide if it was good enough.

Your devoted slave,

1407

Later on that evening i was trimming my body hair with an electric razor and followed one of Mistress Tara's many  directives - to shave my balls. 

i trimmed the hair on my balls as far as i could with the electric razor and applied shaving cream.

The shaving cream felt cool and soothing.  As i started shaving, i expected it to hurt a bit but it really didn't.

It was really very soothing in this really hot weather.

After the shaving was complete, washed them and felt the skin.  Its the softest skin on my body.  In this really hot weather it feels really good to have them hairless.  i can wait to do more.

Aug 10th, 2002  i arrived at the dungeon at 10:30 am to continue working on the closet.  It was a really hot day.

The closet project is going really well.  Today after lots of work i got all of the framing and structural work completed and all of the sheet rock up.

Additionally i got closet bars put in place - its officially a closet.

The following is a report sent to Mistress Tara:

Dear Mistress Tara,

Thank You very much for allowing me to have playtime at the end of my work day.

After a long day of working on the new closet in the cross dressing room and making much progress, I was told my Mistress Anna that You granted me playtime.  Play time was to be with Mistress Lauren, Mistress Mila, Mistress Justine and Mistress Camille.

Mistress Lauren was going to demonstrate various methods of Cock and Ball Torture to the other Mistresses.

Mistress Lauren is a tall and beautiful Mistress who has long dark hair and years of experience as a Mistress.   

Mistress Mila, Mistress Justine and Mistress Camille are each is very beautiful and individually exude a natural dominance that can not be over looked.

I was told by Mistress Anna to report Dungeon Number One dressed in my corset, open bottom girdle, long line bra, stockings and matching shoes.  I was to do ANYTHING Mistress Lauren wants.

When I finished dressing, I entered Dungeon Number One and went to kneel at Mistress Lauren’s feet.

Mistress Lauren instructed me to stand and model my outfit for the Mistresses. 

Walking back and forth in the Dungeon, I do my best to relax and strut like a model.  My heels catch on the rubber floor as I am critiqued and criticized for being unladylike.  Mistress Lauren instructs me to focus on a point on the wall, raise my chest and relax my hands.  It’s working much better.

Mistress Lauren instructs me to knee and kiss Her feet. 

Carefully I kneel at Her feet.  Mistress Lauren’s feet are beautiful. 

She is wearing black open toe platform high heels that have a pretty strap around the ankle.  Her toe nails are painted bright red. 

I carefully kiss each of Her feet on the toes.

Mistress Lauren said ‘Good 1407! Prepare yourself for Cock and Ball Torture’

This was really good timing since I had shaved my balls just the night before.

Standing, I carefully remove all of my clothes and lie on the floor in front of Mistress Lauren as She sits on the bondage bench.

Mistress Lauren suddenly stomped the toe of Her shoe right down onto my balls and dug in with Her weight, telling the Mistresses ‘now that we have 1407’s attention…’

The impact was sudden and surprising.  It really got my attention as to who was in charge here.

Next Mistress Lauren dug the heel of Her shoe into my balls.  It was like a steep spike going right through me.

Instructed to lie on my side, Mistress Lauren stepped the toe of Her shoe on the head of my penis and put Her weight on it.  The head of my penis was being crushed while it felt like it was being ripped off.

Next came ball flicking.  Mistress Lauren went searching around my balls, flicking and flicking, looking for a nerve.  Once She found it, She said ‘good, we will use that later’.

Next I was ordered up, off the floor and onto the bondage bench for cock and ball torture by four Mistresses.

Lying very still, I heard the snap of Mistress Lauren putting on gloves.  Shortly there after I felt the cold steel of the large genital clamp being attached firmly at the base of my balls and penis.  The clamp is made of steel and looks really sinister. 

This clamp was tightened firmly against my skin as Mistress Lauren watched for my wince.

Mistress Lauren said ‘1407; I know you can take a lot of pain, so I’m going to go a little extra tight.'

As the clamp became tighter and tighter, I strangely felt Mistress Tara’s ownership reinforced.  It felt good.

Mistress Lauren showed the other Mistresses various ways that They can use clothes pins to inflict pain.  Mistress Lauren put clothes pins across my balls, putting the last one on the nerve that She discovered earlier.

Removing the clothes pins She said ‘deep breaths 1407’.  As the one came off (the one on the nerve) I felt a huge rush of pain followed by a big endorphins rush. 

Next Mistress Lauren demonstrated how to place the same clothes pins up the shaft of the penis.  The pain grew rapidly as each clothes pin was added with the one at the top (just below the head of my penis) bringing another rush of pain.

With the demonstrations done each of the Mistresses took turns putting on the clamp and looking for my wince of pain.  The wince came every time.

I was instructed to get myself hard.  With all of the Mistresses looking on, I felt a lot of pressure.  It wasn’t working.  Mistress Lauren said ‘let me help’ and placed a clothes pin on each nipple. 

Mistress Lauren said ‘I thought so, they usually goes straight to the penis’

Next Mistress Lauren demonstrated the basic ‘English ball separation’ technique.  She wrapped a long length of rope around the base of my balls with a loop, bringing it around several times and then up between my balls giving it a slight twist.  As She made the twist, She increased the pressure dramatically.  This gave my freshly shaved balls a very shinny look.  The blood vessels bulged and throbbed.

Mistress Lauren gave the rope that was attached firmly to my balls a good tug and said, Mistresses, this is how You do it.

Each Mistress took Her turn, wrapping up my balls tightly in the rope tightly and giving a few tugs.

Each Mistress did it a little differently, all with the same theme.  The harnesses got tighter and tighter as the night wore on.  By the end I was very keyed up erotically.

My balls were getting pretty sore by this time but the lack of hair on them gave the whole experience a brand new sensation. 

After ‘English ball separation’ was completed, I was told to demonstrate the parachute and put ALL of the weights on. 

I carefully snapped the parachute into place.  It wasn’t as hard as it usually would be since I had no hair.  Once it was in place, I took the weights that are on fish hooks and threaded each one with an additional with and carefully hung them on the parachute ring.

As the weight grew, my balls sank lower and lower and my penis got harder and harder.  I got more and more excited.

Mistress Lauren informed me that play time was over and that I was to clean up the room.

Your devoted slave,

1407

Aug 17th 2002  Continued work on the closet.  Today i finished the molding and all of the wood work.

Aug 18th 2002 Shaved my genitals again today.  This time i did a neater cleaner job.  They feel great.

Aug 19th 2002  with some unexpected time in the afternoon, i go to the dungeon to paint the inside of the new closet gold. 

Aug 20th 2002  my newly shaved genitals are really itching today.

Aug 21st 2002 Working with Mistress Tara to understand exactly what She wants for the closet project, i received the following email:

Yes,  the Idea is to have light framing the clothing and wigs; what ever is 
necessary to accomplish that. I didn't care for the tone of "Is that okay". 
Present this note at you next visit to the dungeon and receive 10 swats from 
a long wooden spoon.

NY
HMT

Aug 21st 2002 6:30 am i run to the Home Depot to get more florescent fixtures for the closet project.

Its total body cleansing day, so i run home to get totally clean on the inside and on the outside.  i shave the newly cleaned up areas and give myself a round of enemas and a really good shower, then its off to work.

At lunch time i zipped out to get another round of enemas.  Its hot and the feel really good

After work, more enemas and another shower - then its straight to the dungeon for work.

I spent the entire evening installing the light fixtures that i got early this morning.  After many hours of work, this part of the project is complete.

After my work for the evening was complete, i presented a hard copy of the above email for punishment.

i am told to go into the medical room, remove my clothes and wait for Mistress Magdeline. 

Naked and kneeling in the middle of the room, the picture shows my view.

As Mistress Magdeline walked around me reading the email, She said '1407, one would think that you would know better by now, you have been Mistress Tara's slave for how long?'. 

3 years Mistress.

Well then you will be punished with the big spoon. 

The big spoon is where my first punishment started.  Its a normal wooden cooking spoon but the handle is about two feet long.  Mistress Anna punished be with it first time i served at the dungeon.

Mistress Magdeline said 'stand and lean over the gurney, three more swats with the spoon will be added since you forgot to turn on the blue light out side the door.

Yes Mistress - my reply

That will be thirteen swats with spoon in total Mistress Magdeline said harshly.

The first few swats arrive quickly and without any warning what so ever.

As for most punishments there was no warm up in any way.  It was simply going to be pain to teach me a lesson.

The pain was sharp and got my attention very quickly.

Mistress Magdeline counted as the swats grew up to 6.

Now we are going to slow it down a bit 1407 so that you can really feel the wrath of your Owner, Mistress Tara.

The next seven swats with the spoon were slow and very deliberate on Mistress Magdeline's part.  Each swat was aimed and struck hard.  i winced with pain after each and every one of them.

Each one got the message across that my tone was bad and had to improve.

After the thirteen swats were finished, Mistress Magdeline was not at all satisfied. 

The marks where uneven and She felt i deserved another simply to clarify the situation. 

After my punishment was complete, Mistress Tara inspected my marks and seemed satisfied that She had gotten Her message across.

i apologized to Mistress Tara for my tone.  Mistress Tara told me that she knew i didn't mean it, it was just a mistake and it was treated that way.  Also that it was a mini-reminder and that reminders were good.

i remembered back to my first reminder and how devastating it was to me emotionally. 

Aug 28th 2002 after work i arrived at the dungeon ready for work. 

My main task for the evening was to get the lighting finished in the closet.  i stopped at the hardware store on the way in to pick up supplies and arrived at about 7 pm.  After arrival, i'm pumped knowing that  it was important to get it done.  By 11 pm i was as far as i could go with out more light bulbs.

Mistress Tara put me on several other tasks and by 3am i felt that if i didn't get some sleep, i would get hurt.

i asked for permission to sleep.

Mistress Tara granted me 3 hours sleep with the prevision that i met the building super at 6 am to help clean up the fourth floor for the party.

i was told to 'sleep' on the couch in the Mistress Lounge.  i was to sleep in panties, my slip and my collar.  i was happy and rather jovial but really tired.

While i was very thankful for having some time to rest, i didn't get much.  There was constant background noise and asking me questions.

Aug 29th 2002  tina was born tonight!  After 3 years of  hard work, complicated situations to deal with and things that were hard for me to understand, i was given meaning for my hard work.  Mistress Tara was kind enough to recognize ALL of this in a public fashion.  More about that later...

At 6:05 am i hear a knock on the door, its the building super, wanting to get going.  Ohi, its really early and i have to get going.  i have to get my act together, i take a quick shower and jump into action.

After four and a half hours of really hard work, the fourth floor is basically clear. 

i called Mistress Tara to give Her a status, Her response was WOW.  i asked Mistress Tara for permission to shower, start my enemas and to use one to the high volume ones that was down stairs.  Mistress Tara granted that permission.

Here i am getting started with the enema.  i'm putting on some KY.

This always feels good.  It feels warm and soothing and lubricating.

The bag in the top right of the picture is full of warm water.

Getting started i carefully insert the tube into my ass.

i push it in as far as it can go comfortably.

Next i open the clip that holds the water back.  i feel the flow of wonderful cleansing water rush into me.  It feels great.

With the back half empty i'm beginning to feel full.  It hurts a little as the water makes its way up into my intestines. 

With the bag one quarter full, i'm not sure if i can take the rest, but i'm patient and endure.

It doesn't hurt, its just somewhat uncomfortable in a strange way.

And here is the empty bag - i made it, my first full enema!

i hold the liquid for as long as i can, about 3 minutes and the RUN to the toilet.

The warm water comes rushing out of me, leaving my intestines really clean.

i feel empty.  Standing, i feel a rush inside me of more water that has to exit.

This happened 3 more times until i was finally empty.

i felt clean!

Out to run errands i go...

Upon my return at about one pm, i'm really tired and feel generally useless. 

i finished up some painting, got columns for the party and did some general picking up for the party.

In hind site, all of the Mistress were being really nice to me.

At 4 pm i was allowed run out to get Mistress Tara flowers for Her birthday and then get two hours rest.  i got Mistress Tara Her favorite - 1 dozen whit roses. 

Next i take my another enema and a shower in preparation for the party.  After my shower i shave both my face and my genitals as before.  With clean clothes on i help out a little more for the party and then go to get dressed for the party.

Tonight i am to wear my maids uniform. 

When Mistress Tara arrived at the party, i was completely dressed in my maid’s uniform.  As soon as i heard She was there, i went to Her.  Seeing Her i move toward Her quickly but respectfully, kneel down and kiss Her feet as a greeting.

Mistress Tara instructed me to go be of service to the Mistresses in the party.  Going out into the main room, i felt on display.  i was the only maid.  i got a few complements, but more stares from guys that could work down the hall from me.

i got all of the Mistresses drinks and food as they required.  Next i went to check and see if Mistress Tara needed anything.

Mistress Tara entered the party dressed as Venus the Goddess of Love.  She was dressed in a shear white toga that covered Her beautiful body giving only a hint at her shapely figure and breasts.  She was barefoot.

Her porcelain and beautiful long red hair had a glow under the black lights.

Kneeling by Mistress Tara’s side as She sat in her throne in the VIP Lounge on the fourth floor, midnight approached, Mistress Tara and i spoke briefly about the coming event – i was ready.

Mistress Tara instructed me to go get Her makeup.  i really screwed it up.  i got the wrong things several times.  i was a little scared and exhaustion was beginning to set in.

Mistress Tara instructed Mistress Anna to prepare the medical room for the procedure.  After a few minutes, Mistress Anna returned declaring - all is ready.

i was instructed to ‘worship’ the ground that Mistress Tara walked on all the way to the medical room.  This meant to clean the floor in front of Mistress Tara’s steps with my tongue and to buff it dry.  After the floor was clean Mistress Syren sprinkled white rose peddles on the floor for Mistress Tara’s feet to walk on.

The floor was gritty and dirty from people walking on it all night and the path was long.   As i started out in front of Mistress Tara, i learned how to do this on the fly, i had a really hard time figuring out how to lick the floor, on my hands and knees in my corset and stockings and heels.  There was no doing this with out being totally humiliated.  

Crawling across the VIP Lounge, i lapped up foot after foot of dirt and grit.  After a couple of feet i would stop and with the floor dry so that Mistress Syren could sprinkle rose peddles and Mistress Tara could take a couple of steps.

Out in the main room, a crowd drew around me to watch my continued humiliation.

Mistress Tara was thinking out loud about whether She wanted to go down the steps or the elevator, thank god She decided on the elevator.  The steps are just plain gross; they look like they haven’t been cleaned in years.

Someone summoned the elevator.  i was so far out in space and so tired by this point i barley knew what was going on around me, i just focused on my task.

i cleaned all the way up to the elevator and two feet into it.  My mouth was gross and my teeth were full of grit.

On the way down to the third floor, i knelt quietly at Mistress Tara’s feet.

When the elevator door opened on the third floor there was a group of people there just waiting to enjoy my submission and torture.

Making my way to the medical room, i licked the carpet as clean as i could.  At least it wasn’t a hardwood floor.  By the time i got to the doorway of the medical room my mouth was full of fuzz along with the grit from the fourth floor and the elevator. 

i was still stopping every couple of feet to buff the carpet where i had licked.  Mistress Syren was still lining Mistress Tara’s path with rose peddles.

Entering the medical room in front of Mistress Tara and Mistress Syren, i continued to worship the ground that Mistress Tara walked on, cleaning it with my tongue. 

i was so spaced out from exhaustion and my task at hand, i have no idea how many people where there watching.  i know there were lots but i had things to do.

Making my way over to the gurney, i cleaned and buffed, cleaned and buffed, all very humiliating.

As i approached the gurney, i was instructed to clean up to the stool and move out of the way so Mistress Tara could sit.

i was told to stand. 

Standing in my maid’s uniform, my knees hurting and my head spinning, i was stripped.  My apron and dress were removed as were my bra, corset and panties.  My shoes were kicked across the room and my garter belt and stocking where pushed down to my ankles.

i was told to bend over the gurney. 

Things get blurry from here…

With my weight on the gurney, i could see that there were an assortment of tools for beatings to Mistress Tara’s right.  There were a wide variety of canes, crops and my old ‘friend’ big wooded spoon.

Mistress Tara reviewed my trip to the medical room from the VIP Lounge; it took 15 minutes when it should have taken 7 minutes.  i thought Mistress Tara said there would be 8 lashes for every minute that i was over, with whatever She chose as an implement of pain.  It turns out that She said 8, it’s a good thing because they each one was about the hardest i have ever had

Mistress Tara chastised me for making mistakes with Her makeup. 

'i have no education in makeup' i said in and exhausted and scared way

Well that will change shortly 1407!  Mistress Tara retorts.

At some point during this part of the event, Mistress Tara spanked me really but i can’t remember when.

Mistress Tara hit me four times with the wooden spoon telling the crowd that i had been Her slave for three years and that i had started with the wooden spoon.  The first hit started out really hard – no warm up.  They got much harder after that.  The fourth one was so hard i wasn’t sure i could stand it.

During the first four lashes, i winced HARD.  i groaned in pain and wasn’t sure why they were so hard.   

Mistress Tara said to the crowd that She usually doesn’t allow this kind of a show, but if you look around, he has built or worked on everything you can see.  That’s why we are here now.

Mistress Tara reviewed more of my service to Her and had me review my lie to Her and how severely i was punished.  i was punished by loosing my cross dressing privileges for six months and at least six months of very hard labor.

Mistress Tara said something about me being a highly intelligent slave and being very useful – can’t remember exactly what.

i think i told Mistress Tara that i loved Her – publicly!!!

Mistress Tara told the crowd that ‘he has chosen a very hard thing to do’

i could not do this if it wasn’t for You, Mistress Tara, i said.

Mistress Tara had me review the events of last year, specifically September 10^th, where our anniversary outing, She wanted me to take Her piercing then.  i totally chickened out.

Mistress Tara said ‘1407 do you know what the difference between your punishment for the lie and this are?’

Under huge stress and confusion, i said, i’m not being punished – yet.’

A great laugh came from the room.

Mistress Tara made a point of saying “1407 we are laughing with you - not at you” and “if there is anyone in the room who is laughing at him they are to leave now”.  She called it again.  i have no idea if anyone left. 

i didn’t feel it.  i felt totally humiliated and dirty.  i felt bad, exhausted and confused. i felt like walking out, but didn’t want to leave Mistress Tara.  That would have humiliated Mistress Tara publicly - even in the twisted state i was i will not consciously do that to Mistress Tara. i chose to trust Her and i'm glad i did.   i knew that this was the price i had to pay to be in Her life.  i want to be in Mistress Tara's life.

The seriousness of the situation increased as the room fell silent.  The tension increased exponentially.

Noise was coming from the hallway; Mistress Tara had it stopped immediately.

Mistress Tara had me lean over the gurney again.  She hit me four more times.  This time it was with a cane.  She he me so hard i though i was going to faint.  i was thinking that if i had to take 64 of these i just couldn’t do it.

In the middle of this part of the beating, Mistress Tara gave me the option of NOT taking the piercing at least once maybe twice.  i decline and said i was ready and wanted Her piercing.

Mistress Tara stated in a domineering tone, “GOOD, get on the gurney, lay on your back with your head toward the wall.”

When i was in place and ready, Mistress Tara mounted the gurney with my head between Her knees and facing the crowd.

Mistress Tara shaved my genitals completely, there was no hair what so ever left.

i felt Mistress Tara’s knees clamp down in my head.

Mistress Tara took my left hand and held it tight.  She gave me another chance to leave.  i declined.

i held my legs wide open.

i felt the pinch of two fingers on my skin right above my asshole.  Mistress Tara said OK here we go and clamped down on hand and my head.

i felt a VERY BRIGHT and VERY SHARP PAIN where i had just felt the pinch.  This time it wasn’t going away.  As i write this the pain comes right back.  This was no pin prick, this was real sharp and deep pain. 

i’m told that there was collective breath in around the room as the needle went in, but i’ll never know, i was so far out there…

i felt a foreign body in my body.

Mistress Tara said – almost done.  It took maybe 5 minutes total?  It probably changed my life - hopefully for the better.

Mistress Tara dismounted and stayed close.

i was totally disoriented, i was taking the smallest breaths possible, She got me breathing a little deeper.

Every muscle in my body was trembling.  i have never trembled so deeply before.  i was scared, really scared.

There was clapping and i think some cheering. 

After the room quieted down, Mistress Tara announced, there is one more thing…

He is to be given his slave name – that name is tina. 

Finally i had gotten over that mountain and i got a girl’s name!  i was relieved and shaking and scared and totally exhausted.

Afterward….

After the event, Mistress Tara asked that the room be cleared so that She be alone with me.  i told Her that i loved Her very much and was really happy about what had just happened and that i was really scared.  i was crying.  Looking back, i am scared that my life will become wretched and foolish.

Every muscle in my body was tensed up.  i was trembling from head to toe; my diaphragm was pulled up as high as i could hold it.  i was taking very short breaths – really scared.

i looked down at my genitals and the piercing - it was beautiful.

Mistress Tara let me have two glasses of wine.  Wine never tasted so good.

Mistress Tara and i talked about relationships and what type i wanted, either S/M or vanilla.  i never though of it an ‘as either or’ situation.  She assigned me to read ‘Venus in Furs’ and get back to Her.

Mistress Tara put Her arms around me and held me for a few minutes.  i had waited for that since the interrogation.     It was sweet, i felt wanted and loved. 

i was told to put on a loin cloth and re-join the party.  Mistress Anna helped my tie it and off i went to the party.  The loin cloth was a big piece of fabric that was tied around my waist, really just like a skirt.

Re-joining the party,  there were many sets of congratulations from the Mistresses and a very spiritual chat with Mistress Tina.  Everyone said that i did the right thing.

At the end of the evening, i was told that i was to sleep in the new cage in room number 6.  The cage is about 3 feet high, 4 feet wide and about 9 feet long.  The sleeping chamber was prepared with heavy foam mats,  a couple of pillows and a teddy bear.

i was to put on red Doctor Denton’s for sleeping.

Mistress Tara said, its 4 am and past little tina’s bed time.  In front of the cage, i knelt down, kissed Mistress Tara’s toes goodnight and crawled into the cage.  Mistress Tara closed the cage door and said i’ll be back in a minute.

Mistress Tara came back with two more small dolls, a pacifier and a lock.  She gave me the dolls and instructed me to put the pacifier in my mouth and locked the cage. 

 i heard the lock being put into the hasp and click shut.  i heard the lock go "Click".

She came over to the side of the cage and said ‘goodnight tina’, turned out the light and closed the door. 

As soon as the door was closed, i checked to cage door and lock, it was real; i was locked in the cage until someone let me out.

i thought i would be really scared, but i felt safe and warm and really tired.  i’m sure i was asleep within 5 minutes.

Aug 30^th 2002  At about noon Mistress Anna came in to say good morning and see if little tina was ready to get up.

i had been awake for about one half hour and was ready.  Mistress Anna unlocked the cage and i crawled out and stretched.  On the first stretch, i was immediately reminded of my new piercing.

Waking up i was offered coffee and some breakfast, i was really spaced out.  i felt different.

Mistress Anna explains how to ‘wipe like a girl’ for cleaning after using the toilet.  

i was able to see Mistress Tara for a few minutes and had to go home and get more rest.