Journal of Submission

Dec 2nd 2000 The concept of being owned like a pet really hurt! i feel very uncared for at this point.

work in the dungeon, just work

my life is way off center lately

Dec 9th 2000 i betrayed Mistress Tara's trust while being tested by Anna and Mistress Syren. i am a stupid asshole and feel horrible. I'm not allowed to speak until the 24th. no cross-dressing privs and im on probation. Maybe it would just be better if it was over. 

i was tested and failed horribly.

Dec 10th 2000 didn't sleep at all, not 10 minutes.

Dec 11th 2000 up 41 hrs before sleep feel horrible and depressed.

Dec 16th 2000 feel very alone but better than a couple of days ago.

Dec 18th 2000 worked in the new space - feeling a little better

the silence that Mistress Tara has imposed upon me is actually quite soothing to a soul with a self inflected wound.

Dec 30th 2000 work in the dungeon