Journal of Submission

Jun 3rd 2000Put cage together and general cleaning of room 3. Play with Mistress Alexandra. Mistress Alexandra reviewed my work and gave me a nice spanking. It hurt but not as much as it has in the past. 

Jun 10th 2000 Completed the last requirement for an extended session, re-calling the hanging cage. 

Jun 17th 2000 Call Anna the Den for instructions for the week. Instructions are an enema every 3 hours, drink as much water as possible and take the best shower of your life right before you come to the Den. This is referred to as a total body cleansing. i was intrigued.

Jun 18th 2000 i arrived at 4 PM as requested. i've had three enemas, lots of water and a great shower. i feel very clean and a little water logged. Mistress Tara took me to Purple Passion, DeMask and The Leather man for shopping. As a reward Mistress Tara allowed me to purchase a posture collar and a butt plug harness with a plug as well as the collar She had mentioned a while back. It was all pretty exciting. The butt plug was attached to the leather base and the collar had to be custom made. 

Off to dinner. Mistress Tara chose a restaurant on Grove street in the village. Mistress Tara orders dinner, Tuna tartar and a Lobster salad for Herself and a garden salad for me with the dressing on the side. i am instructed to go to the restroom and put on the harness. Mistress Tara inspected the bag to make sure i had done the right thing. i was getting pretty excited and tried to keep my cool. After Mistress Tara ate Her Tuna, Her lobster salad and my garden salad came. Mistress Tara then pours out the dressing for my salad and heads to the rest room with the cup. In a couple of minutes, Mistress Tara returns with 'new' dressing. i am instructed to pour the dressing over the salad and eat. Very good dressing! During dinner i try to make engaging conversation.

Back at the dungeon, i am instructed to go into room 1 and wait. Mistress Alexandra and Mistress Ingrid enter to put me in a rope harness. After several tries one that is acceptable to Mistress Tara is in place. The rope harness was attached to my butt plug harness, pulling it nice and tight, felt great.

Mistress Tara attempted to apply the nipple clamps that tighten as the move to my nipples but my left one was not cooperating. i just kept coming off. Over all it really hurt. i was trying to do my breathing correctly - but the left one was not cooperating.

Next came the single tail whip. i was told to face the cross. Moving my arms up i felt my penis (bound in the harness) about to tear off. i put my arms back down. Mistress Tara started in with the single tail. i counted 1 through 20 strikes with the single tail. These hurt like hell!!!! Probably the most painful thing yet. i was dumb enough to ask to see the single tail, 10 more. Wow did that hurt.

Next was caning. This was the beginning of punishment. i was told that i was too impatient in the stores. i was asking for too much and that was inappropriate. Mistress Tara told me She was disappointed and that i would have to wait for more play. i was disappointed too, however i understood. i did get 20 hard hits with the cane. This was a new cane and it really hurt also. It might have been a reaction from the single tail.

i was criticized for being too slow with my work. 

Mistress Tara removed most of the rope harness and i finished it. On completion i was to report to the office. Upon reporting to the office, i was taken to the Mistresses lounge and my marks were displayed to all the Mistresses as i knelt to Mistress Tara's feet. The marks were beautiful. i was asked to tell why the session was cut short and to share what Mistress Tara told me. That was that She cares deeply for me. Overall i felt cared for, it really felt good.

Jun 20th 2000 30 min of harness training followed by 30 min of exercise as instructed.

Jun 21st 2000 In an effort to get to the Den earlier on Saturday, i go to The Leather man to pick up my collar. Calling Mistress Tara, to let Her know, i'm told "i am to resume the total body cleansing ritual for Thursday" i purchase more enemas and use two before bed. 30 min of harness training followed by 30 min of exercise as instructed.

Jun 24th 2000 With four enemas during the course of the day, lots of water and a great shower i head off the Den with my harness in place. i arrive at 7PM and am instructed to get into my maids uniform and clean Mistress Tara's office. i straighten up and do the laundry. Faster this time, same attention to detail, just faster. Next i clean the bathroom.

i am instructed to wait for Mistress Tara in room one, i kneel and wait. When 
Mistress Tara arrives i'm given a complete body inspection checking for scents and unclean parts. This felt oddly exciting, its the first time i've felt like i'm responsible for someone else's property.

Mistress Tara then reviews the positions of submission She has taught me to date:

1. kneel up
2. kneel back
3. kneel on all 4's
4. stand presenting ass
5. stand hands at sides
6. stand hands in back of head

Now naked, i am instructed to lie face down on the bondage bench. From behind  Mistress Tara begins to open up my ass with Her fingers. She complains about  only being able to get two fingers in. it feels tight and i'm getting excited. 

Mistress Tara instructs me in relaxing and continues to twist and turn Her fingers to widen to entryway. i feel the red dildo start to be inserted, it doesn't go far but Mistress Tara doesn't push too hard. After a while, i really excited, but it's beginning to get sore. Mistress Tara pulls back and says, The session is now over, clean up and put your collar away, and you are not ready for it yet.

Back home, my pager goes off. Its 12:57 AM, Mistress Tara is cleaning out the 10th floor and wants help. Back in the car headed to west 18th street. i work hard until 8 AM.

Jun 25th 2000 Beyond tired from work last night. 30 min of harness training plus 30 min of exercises. 10 minutes sleep.

Jun 26th 2000 Wearing my harness i head off to the Den for more work on the 10th floor. It's hot. i remove my harness when i get there, 45 min and do my exercises as i'm working. 

Jun 27th 2000 30 min of harness training plus 30 min of exercises

Jun 28th 2000 30 min of harness training plus 30 min of exercises