Journal of Submission

Mar 4th 2000 Finished work on the wall! Toward the end of the work, i was exhausted and mistakenly i cut a slice into the floor with the circular saw. i owned up to it as soon as i saw Mistress Tara. im not sure how She felt about it but i think She appreciated it that i told Her immediately. i was not happy with my self! Mistress Tara was very kind in offering me some play time. She offered me a choice between Mistress Tyra and Mistress Misha. 

i chose Mistress Misha. i was given another choice, private time with Mistress Misha or a training session with Mistress Misha and Mistress Tara. i've been in these before and enjoyed them so i chose the latter, was that ever the right choice.

The session started with instructions for me to get dressed in my maids uniform and heels. 

Maids Inspection - Very exciting, felt totally vulnerable and available. Nipple torture - Mistress Misha put close pins on each nipple and tore them off. After about 15 times this really hurt. CBT with English ball separation - Mistress Tara made a beautiful harness around my genitals, this gave wonderful pleasure and excitement. Then off the cross for wax and fire play, bound on all 4s to the cross naked hot wax was poured over my nipples and chest and genitals

During this Mistress Tara caressed my legs and chest with Her wonderful nails then fire play - had to be TOTAL trusting - it was a little scary my armpit hair caught on fire - Mistress Tara laughed and said i was that ever a Kodak moment. i was let loose and instructed by Mistress Misha to masturbate while She continued to torture my nipples.

Mar 6th 2000 Cleanup from the wall project. Hung a shelf for Maggie.

Mar 11th 2000 Was suppose to have me extended session, but Mistress Tara had to cancel. Finished cleaning up from the wall project.

Mar 28th 2000 Called the Den to find out about special instructions. i was suppose to bring Belgian chocolates for Balducci's in the village and white roses. Ordered the white roses and ran into the city for the chocolates.

Mar 27th 2000 The day arrived for my extended session with Mistress Tara

i arrived at 9PM as requested. Mistress Tara arrived a little later and we got started at about 10Pm.

i was told to stay in room one until called. when called i was told to take these things into room one - it was a lot of stuff. Mistress Tara said "It's going to be a busy night"

i was then taught how She likes Her dungeon kept. hanging stuff up on the hooks on the wall.

i was told to kneel in front of Mistress Tara and She reviewed Her ownership of my flesh!

She said "Who owns your flesh?" you do Ma'am, my reply. "So then, why do you have these clothes on?!" i stripped naked and went back to kneel in front of Mistress Tara. Mistress Tara taught me the 4 phases of submission in Her dungeon.

1. Pleasure
2. Attention
3. Discipline
4. Reminder - a reminder is not a good thing. i was told it would hurt for weeks to come. i found this very intimidating.

Next i was taught that the only way i could move around was on my knees.

Mistress Tara walked over to Her throne and sat, i was told to come over here Now!. i crawled over and knelt in front of Her. i was told to climb up on Her lap for a spanking. i was chastised for not putting my full weight on Mistress Tara's legs. i get a traditional over the knee spanking. i had never had one of these before. It felt great, really didn't hurt much.

i was instructed to light the candles

Mistress Tara is smoking and blows smoke in my face, then over my butt.

Mistress Tara says "do you know what it means in Europe when a woman blows smoke in your face?" no Ma'am, "it means She wants to fuck you" "do you know what it means to have smoke blown over your butt?"

i think so Ma'am

Next, i was told to get down. Mistress Tara, grabbed my hair and started to walk back to the front of the room, with me in tow. Stand! Mistress Tara exclaimed. Mistress Tara then unraveled a 50 foot piece of rope and proceeded create a training harness, an intricately knotted harness that covered my torso. It was tight, pulling my shoulders down. it was would intricately around my penis and genitals and came up through the crack in my butt.

On your knees and follow me to the cross, Mistress Tara said. i was told to assume the position on the cross!

Mistress Tara beat me with several different whips and floggers, intermixing beatings with dripping hot wax on me and caressing my with Her finger nails. The sensation was heavy pain then a burning from the wax and cool excitement from the fingernails. Quite the aphrodisiac.

Then came a wonderful caress with a vibrator followed by insertion of a large butt plug. The butt plug hurt, but i knew it was necessary. Following this were more beatings, wax and finger nails. i was really excited.

Then Mistress Ava and Mistress Viva came in to help atone my sins.

Things i said about my wife and scratches in the floor.

Foot worship to Mistress Ava and Mistress Viva. Foot worship is always great.

Now it was off to the bondage table for personal attention from Mistress Tara. Mistress Tara climbed over me and put my head between Her legs. This made a tent over my head with Her skirt. i could smell Mistress Tara's delicious scent. 

Mistress Tara alternated between using Her fingernails to caress my body, smothering me with Her hands and closing the tent of Her skirt over my head.

The scent of Mistress Tara and the caressing of my body made me really excited while the smothering was pretty scary. It was quite a roller coaster - this part at least.

Next Mistress Tara but close pins on my nipples, they really hurt. They stayed on forever. As She took them off, She said "This will hurt me more than you", we both got a good laugh.

i was given permission for release on the count of ten. Mistress Tara began to count sensuously with breathy words one, two, three, four and then sped up 5,6,7 and then eight, eight and a half, nine and ten. i was there right on schedule.

We were done at 2:30, i cleaned to room and thanked Mistress Tara.

Mar 28th 2000 i'm a zombie at work today.