Journal of Submission 

May 6^th 2002   After an evening of work in the dungeon, i was given some play time with Mistress Tyra and Mistress Raquel.  Mistress Rachel wanted to practice Her flogging and Mistress Tyra was there to coach Her.

As my wrists were secured to the cross in the main dungeon….

Mistress Tyra coached as Mistress Raquel refined Her technique.  Mistress Raquel's blows got more accurate and harder as the minutes wore by.  Mistress Tyra took over several times to demonstrate proper technique and Mistress Raquel caught on quickly. 

The blows got harder and harder as i began to approach what i though was my limit.  Being careful with my breathing, that limit zoomed by and was gone.  Mistress Raquel resumed Her beating with clear confidence and power.  i moved higher and higher into sub space.

As a reached another plateau in subspace the beating subsided and i felt a cat scratch on my wounds.  It was Mistress Raquel scraping Her sharp finger nails on my deep red marks.  It hurt and tickled at the same time.

Deep in subspace, Mistress Tyra gave me the hardest spanking i have ever felt.  It was slap after slap after slap on my butt.  Mistress Tyra caressed my butt then slapped it hard, then the other side. Caress then slap, caress the slap.  It tickled and hurt all at the same time.

Mistress Tyra caressed my ass; i could feel her body rubbing against my back.  i felt Her breasts move softly and sweetly up my back.  i felt Her sweet breath on my neck, i felt warm and cared for.

i felt the warm red spots on my butt and back where i had been beaten so hard.

May 7^th 2002    Secretarial work.   i had a vacation day so i went to work as Mistress Tara’s secretary.

Outfit: panties, corset, butt panties, open bottom girdle, long line bra, black pumps, black stocking and skirt, white slip and white pretty tee shirt.

My day was spent in a tight corset, high heels and a skirt doing office work.

i spent the day faxing, sending email and updating the web.  Upon completion of those tasks, i had a meeting with the office manager and was treated like an employee, a female employee.

After my day in the office was finished, i was to get some play time with Mistress Raquel and Mistress Michelle

Mistress Raquel wanted to practice Her flogging and i was the Ginny pig.

May 9, 2002    More work as Mistress Tara’s secretary.  Same outfit as Tuesday: white high top Victoria Secret panties, corset, butt panties, open bottom girdle, long line bra, black pumps, black skirt.  But this time i’m wearing nude stockings and a pretty white cotton twin set.  i wore the sweater top for the twin set carefully draped over my shoulders and buttoned at the neck.

After i got dressed i walked by the maintenance man in as sexy a walk as i could, i hope he noticed.  It felt great. 

i had to be so careful eating; i really didn’t want to get anything on my new white twin set.

As my evening of secretarial work ended, i went down stairs to ask if there is play time for me.  Mistress Michelle said “you look so cute!”  i blushed and thanked Her.

Play time was with Mistress Seven and Mistress Meagan.  i was instructed to go to the Interrogation Room and wait.  As the Mistresses arrived, i was kneeling in the center of the Interrogation Room still dressed in my secretarial outfit.  i was told to stand.

Standing, i was abruptly undressed into a much disheveled condition.  My skirt was on the floor along with my corset.  My stockings were down around my knees and my girdle was just above them.   i felt my panties being pulled hard down to the middle of my thighs.   Not a very pretty sight.

i was told to put my hands on the cross.  Carefully moving toward the cross so as not to ruin my clothes, i take tiny steps and put my hands high up and stick my ass out.

i knew what coming; Mistress Seven’s cruelty along with Her sweet caress.  Out of the corner of my eye, i saw that Mistress Meagan had brought the flogger that had each of its tentacles covered with latex.  i had heard that that was a really tough one but had never experienced it before.

Mistress Seven began to brush me with the flogger, brush stroke after brush stroke. Each blow making a deeper impression on Her canvas (my flesh).

The blows subsided for a moment as Mistress Seven pushed Her flesh to mine.  i felt the deep scraping of Her finger nails on my back, up and down, like damage was being done.

i felt Mistress Seven’s finger nails dig deep into each of my nipples.  Hard then light then very hard.

i was given permission to release.  i started rubbing my penis as Mistress Seven dug deeper into my nipples with her beautiful long fingernails.  Then a scratch in my back and a pull of my hair and back to my nipples.

Mistress Seven exclaimed – CUM NOW slave.  i had actually had three orgasms, all fairly dry but three really deep orgasms.

Mistress Seven was satisfied and picked up Her toys and left.

May 10,2002       my nipples are still really sore from Mistress Seven's abuse.  One of them bled a little the other day.

May 14, 2002     after a small amount of work about the dungeon i had secretarial work to.

i’ve been dressing up so much lately that when i wear men’s clothes some times i go to lift up my skirt to straighten my short.  i guess i’m getting a little jaded.

i told Dawn that  was going to start acting like an employee.

Mistress Porsche said ‘nice boots’

At 10pm my corset is killing me!!!

May 16, 2002              work on the web site 

May 21, 2002              work in the dungeon 

May 23, 2002              After working for a while on the forth floor Mistress Tara came in.  Mistress Tara was looking unusually beautiful.  After a little more work Mistress Tara told be – ‘shower very quickly and get dressed, you are going to Hellfire with Me, wear panties and your collar’.

i made the shower quick – really quick.

Arriving at Hellfire i followed Mistress Tara and her friend.  After Mistress Tara was seated, i knelt down by Her side.  i got Her drinks and food and lit Her cigarettes. 

Mistress Tara instructed me to check my clothes.

Wearing just my ‘Hanes her way’ panties and my collar, i arrived back at Mistress Tara’s and knelt down by Her side.  This time i was kneeling with my bare legs and knees on the gross concrete floor at Hellfire. 

After a short amount of time, Mistress Tara told me ‘all fours’.  i went down on all fours and got a really sweet caning.  i got 25 lashes in all, most hurt a lot.  After particularly hard hits, Mistress Tara ran Her finger nails over my marks.  Half a dozen of the blows were on my feet – very painful. it was very soothing and took me farther and farther into the zone.

After the caning, Mistress Tara summoned me to come close.  Closer than i had been in a long time.  Kneeling very close to Her, she ran Her fingers through my hair and put Her arm on my shoulder.

There was talk about me doing a scene.  After some time i was summoned to the small stage where all the action was.  i was to have a public scene with Mistress Gemini.  My first public scene!

Up on the stage, i removed my panties and put them over my head.  i was instructed to be on all fours.

My scene with Mistress Gemini started with what i thought would be a basic caning.  i was totally wrong.  Mistress Gemini did a basic warm up and took off.  The caning on my ass was very painful.  i probably got 40 blows on my ass, but Mistress Gemini was not satisfied with that.

After a seemingly brief reprieve from the pain, Mistress Gemini grabbed my genitals and pulled – HARD.  She pulled and pulled.  Then She twisted and pulled.  Then She pulled some more.

Then Mistress Gemini kicked me in the balls many times  - i have no idea how many times.

Next Mistress Gemini took the cane and began to hit between my legs just touching my penis.  After about 20 blows between my legs – hitting my penis every time, Mistress Gemini stopped and resumed the blows to my ass.  This time harder – much harder.

After about 20 more blows, Mistress Gemini stopped and posed for the camera.  This was the first time during the scene that i realized i was being photographed.  i had seen the flash but i was so engrossed in the scene i really did notice it.

The blows to my ass stopped and Mistress Gemini told me to kneel up – pushing my groin up into the air.  Mistress Gemini again posed for the camera.

Mistress Gemini then began caning me on the nipples of my breasts.  i was in the zone so i could take some pain but WOW did that hurt.

Mistress Gemini really knows how to hit – HARD – REAL HARD.

With the scene ending Mistress Gemini pulled my panties off of my head and instructed me to thanks Her by kissing Her feet.

As Mistress Gemini stepped off the stage, i heard and saw everyone who watched applauding.

Resuming my place at Mistress Tara’s side, Mistress Tara said ‘you took quite a beating’

i really did and feel great.

Mistress Tara instructed mm to get dressed – it was time to go.

Back at the dungeon to pick up my things, Mistress Magdalene asked for some play time.

This time, i was given my review as the secretary.  i was told that my skirts were too short, that my reports were late and that i was suspected of being the office slut.  i was given a great spanking – about 30 blows with an open hand.  i will try to be a much better secretary in the future.

i was told that ‘i better be a good secretary or else’ and to go home NOW.

May 28, 2002              Mistress Tara was in a really good mood as i arrived at the dungeon for my evening of work.  Mistress Tara wanted attention paid to Her feet.  Her feet were beautiful as She had just had a French Pedicure done at Her favorite nail salon.  Mistress Tara  wanted even more pampering.  Her feet were so soft and pretty with Her toe nails painted delicately in the French manicure tradition.

Mistress Tara loves to do fun things with her feet.  She likes to write letters, take pictures with Her camera and smoke.  She loves to smoke with Her feet.  She could twist and turn Her body so she could take a hit from Her cigarette while it was held between Her toes.

 It was a really beautiful sight to see Mistress Tara make such incredible use of Her toes. 

Mistress Tara had written entire letters to slaves with Her feet.  Her 'footmanship' was impeccable. 

Mistress Tara is also adept at putting out her cigarettes with Her feet.  She could carefully extinguish her cigarette while not getting Her feet dirty in the ash tray - if She wanted to.

This time however, Mistress Tara had no intention of keep Her pretty feet clean.  They were going to get dirty, very dirty and it was going to be at my expense.

The look in Mistress Tara's eyes had shifted from playful to very dominant.

It was clear that the fun was over and the real work was about to begin. 

In a clear and authoritative way, Mistress Tara instructed me to lay down in front of the bed so that She could remain in a comfortable place while my torture for the evening commenced.  Mistress Tara said "don't get too comfortable, we don't want you to miss one little bit of pain now do we 1407"

No Mistress Tara, i reply respectfully.

Laying down on the hard wood floor, with my hood and collar in place, i could feel the creases between the floor boards.  With my limited vision, i couldn't tell if there were any splinters in the floor or not.  With some luck there would be no splinters or had Mistress Tara planned for that?

As i made myself 'comfortable', i could sense Mistress Tara lean over me.   i could feel the ashtray being dumped on to my chest.  With my very limited vision, i could see that Mistress Tara was smiling.

Moving back onto the bed, Mistress Tara then began to grind the cigarette butts into my chest with Her feet.  She was doing a very thorough job, making sure each butt was broken up and that the remaining tobacco along with the ashes here ground deeply into my skin.

i was surprised that Mistress Tara didn't pickup one of the cigarette butts with Her pretty toes and deposit one in my mouth.  She made me eat one on my last trip to LA with Her.  It was disgusting, but She is in charge, so i had to do it.

The grinding of the cigarette butts into the skin on my chest continued on until Mistress Tara's pretty toes were filthy.

She said in Her pretty voice,'1407 if you could see right now, you would know that my toes are just disgustingly dirty.  Now is that my problem 1407?'

Being fully aware of my current position and the fact that i am owned property of Mistress Tara, i respectfully answered 'No Mistress Tara, it's my problem'

Not being able to see much, i could feel Mistress Tara moving around.  i got a glimpse of Mistress Tara standing up.

Mistress Tara was standing beside me, scratching Her beautiful but very dirty toes up and down my chest.  i caught a quick look at Mistress Tara's face, She was having fun but looked really sinister.

Mistress Tara said '1407, do you know who the boss is?'

'Yes Mistress Tara, You are the boss and my owner'

Mistress Tara, 'Now 1407, I'm going to really drive that point home'

Yes Mistress Tara, my respectful reply as i feel Mistress Tara shifting Her weight.

Before i could tell one thing i could feel Mistress Tara's full weight squarely on my chest.  She was standing on my rib cage.

i was being trampled by Mistress Tara!

as i try to figure out how to breathe and live through this, Mistress Tara says 'Who is the boss 1407'.

Meekly i reply 'You are Mistress Tara'

That's right 1407!!!

Mistress Tara stayed there to continue to drive the point home. 

i felt an impending panic coming on, but used the breathing technique that Mistress Tara had taught me long ago, to breathe from the diaphragm.  my breath was very shallow. 

There was no way i could fill up my lungs, but i was able to go into the Zen state, simply witnessing what was happening.  i felt like i was watching from across the room. 

i could feel Mistress Tara's weight squarely on my rib cage.   my breathing became very shallow.  

It was really clear who was in charge - it was Mistress Tara.

Each breath was no more than a sip of fresh air.  i struggled to keep my chest muscles tight and hold back the weight, but to no avail, i simply had to give in and know that Mistress Tara was only going to hurt me purposefully and that i was safe from any accidents.  In a way it was very comforting to know this, but She was still standing on my chest.

The pressure on my chest was released as Mistress Tara sat down on the bed.

The torture was however, not over.  Mistress Tara was eyeing my genitals as Her next target.

Mistress Tara began to rub Her filthy feet all over my penis.  i could feel the grit from the cigarette ashes grind into my penis.  i could feel the pressure of Her feet pushing into my penis.  i could feel a cigarette but being rubbed on my penis by Mistress Tara's lovely feet.

All during this incredible torture, Mistress Tara's French Pedicure stayed beautiful.

Suddenly, i felt the head of my penis being grabbed by Mistress Tara's pretty toes and stretched.  It was stretched until it felt like it would be torn off.

During all of this penis stretching, the heel of Mistress Tara's right foot came down hard, right into my balls.

Mistress Tara stretched and stretched my penis and my balls all at the same time.  It was pure agony and pure ecstasy at the same time.

Cleaning time for Mistress Tara's feet began as She grew tired of this slaves trials and tribulations.

i licked and licked with my tongue out as far as i could possibly put it and yet my efforts simply didn't meet Mistress Tara's expectations.

my mount tasted like a ashtray mixed with the sweet taste of Mistress Tara's toes.

i tried again and again to please Mistress Tara, all in vain.  Mistress Tara ordered me to the shower to give Her feet a proper cleaning. 

A cleaning that i simply could not give with my tongue. 

my tongue was gritty from the ashes, my chest and penis and balls were covered with ashes that were ground in by Mistress Tara's feet.  my chest felt like it had been caved in by the pressure of Mistress Tara's trampling.

All of this meant nothing, i had to get Mistress Tara's feet clean!

Mistress Tara said 'this will not be good for you 1407' as i crawled down the hallway following Her to the shower.

Entering the bathroom i quickly found soap and went to work scrubbing the areas that were simply unreachable with  my feeble slave tongue.

i cleaned in between Her toes, under Her beautiful toenails, Her heel and the entire bottom and top of each foot.  i was really hoping to at least come close to meeting Mistress Tara's expectations.

Mistress Tara, while being only marginally satisfied, was growing rather tired of the whole situation. 

Mistress Tara said 'Dry MY feet and back to the bedrooms slave' 

Carefully drying Mistress Tara's right leg and then her right foot i knew i had to hurry and be careful and thorough at the same time.  Quite a task. 

i dried between each toe one at a time going deep into the space between each toe and around each toenail. 

Back in the bedroom, Mistress Tara was ready to teach me a lesson.  She said that while i was fairly good slave this was an area where i needed a lot of work.  my attention to detail needs to be much better and i must exercise my tongue to make it extend much longer.

Mistress Tara slapped me across face and head time and time again.  i was slapped so many times that my hears began to ring.

Mistress Tara repeated 'this is for your own good 1407' as my ears rang out.

Mistress Tara slapped me at least 25 times.

As a final part of cleaning Mistress Tara's feet, i was to put Her shoes - carefully. 

Mistress Tara's shoes where black paten leather high heels for Fredrick's of Hollywood that she had gotten during one of Her many trips to LA.

The heel looked like it was about 5 inches. 

As i fit each shoe to Her foot, Mistress Tara watched carefully.  Mistress Tara studied each and every move i made.

it was pretty clear that this wasn't going so well either. 

As is struggled, to get Mistress Tara's shoe on without hurting Her beautiful toes, She pulled Her foot and finished  it her self.

Totally dissatisfied, said - '1407 your service today has been marginal at best, when will you ever learn?' 

Maybe a spanking will help you learn to be a better slave.

As i moved over Mistress Tara's pretty legs and put my full weight on Her knees, i could get a tiny glimpse of Her beautiful feet in Her beautiful high heels.

Mistress Tara told me that i was to pay more attention to detail.  i was just too sloppy. 

If wanted to continue in Her service, i would HAVE to improve on my attention to detail.

The spanking started off hard and got worse quickly. 

Mistress Tara hit each side of my ass with the cup of Her hand.  Most of the times She hit me, She let Her hand stay there for a second or two to increase the sting.

The sting increased with each hit and i went deep into sub space. 

Sometimes Mistress Tara played my ass like a bongo drum, sometimes She concentrated Her efforts to one cheek.

i could feel my ass getting red and sore.

i could feel Mistress Tara dig her French Manicured fingers nails into each of the cheeks of my ass.  This was Mistress Tara's way of caressing my sore ass and wounded self esteem.

Mistress Tara stated ' Well 1407,  maybe all of that will help you play more attention to detail. Now go clean up the shower, there will be an inspection in 6 minutes.'

May 30^th 2002      This evening my work was isolated to updating the web site.  As before this was secretarial work. 

i dressed in my normal things, with a new blouse i had gotten at Ann Taylor.  It was a silky tee shirt with cap sleeves.  Mistress Tara complemented it by saying 'nice top'

Later Mistress Tara noticed that the zipper to my skirt was down and said 'zip up, you look sloppy'

By then end of the evening, my corset and heels were killing me.  My left pinky toe was really hurting.  i guess i just need more time in heels.

It was a busy month.